My Story on Faith and how Jesus found me in the desert.
"I always struggled to tell people about my Faith. I don't know why or understand why it was a struggle. Until one day I felt convicted at a church service. I was a "baby christian" , drinking milk for years without even knowing it... I needed to eat solid food and grow up".
This is my story.
God saved me.
He showed me the truth in his word.
He saved me from depression, social anxiety and suicidal thoughts.
He showed me I wasn't alone.
He opened my eyes, for once I was blind and now I can see.
Spiritual sight is different than worldly sight. When God opens your spiritual eyes, you see things differently , you see people differently. You have more compassion, more understanding, even when you don't understand. Little things don't bother you as much.
You don't just read the Bible , he opens your eyes to understand it. Only if you ask him for understanding.
People think the Bible is just a book with rules and regulations. But it's not... it's a love book , full of wisdom to live a full life and how to live correctly in this world.
I still have moments of depression , discouragement , anxiety and moments of emptiness.
Moments when I question God and his goodness...
Even when I don't feel him or understand his ways , I still trust. Some days are harder than others but I always end up trusting him more after.
God never promised an easy life or a life free of trouble. But he has promised us that he would never leave us nor forsake us. ( Deuteronomy 31:6)
"Moments in my life that don't make sense " ( vulnerable moment for me )
Why it took so long to find friendships , ( found friends in my late twenties)
Why I still don't have my own place or afford one at this age.
Why I have 2 family members very close to me with an alcohol addiction.
Why my dad is far away in another country.
Why I'm still single, all these years ( 28 to be exact )
Why I still have moments of emptiness as a Christian.
Why it took 17 years to be diagnosed with Endometriosis.
And the list goes on...
BUT God..
He has never left me...he has carried me through seasons of drought and long deserts.
He has held my hands through multiple surgeries where I felt alone.
He has given me strength when I thought I couldn't go on. Courage when I felt weak.
When I begged him to take me to heaven because life was to hard here on earth. He had bigger plans than I imagined.
Things don't make sense at times.. but it's okay.
Sometimes it okay to question and to do doubt , it makes us h u m a n.
I have peace and a joy that I can't get from this world.
Only from God.
So if you are in a season where you don't understand , ask him to give you peace and joy.
he will.
Thank you Lord for the little things. I love you.
-Juliana :)